im here again. (:


but for a totally different purpose of course. i suddenly felt so bad about myself.

well, you know, i was from reputable schools in primary & secondary school: maha bodhi and chung cheng high main.

and yet now i found myself in tampines jc. im not trying to criticise or look down on anyone here(not as if i am any better) but the fact remains that i landed myself in a neighbourhood jc. thats it.
and if i cant get into a decent jc or even a jc at all after this PAE, i must say that i've really wasted a good 10 years of my education.

yes, in case if you are wondering, its my trip to tjc today and the people who i saw made me reflect on myself so much. they are not anyone great, not all of them came from great secondary schools. some of them were even in classes that werent as good as mine back in cchms or mbs.
but they could get into tj.. then where am i? am i really not as clever as them? no.. seriously i dont think so.

the only reason is; i screwed myself up.
had i paid more attention in class and be more consistent in my work back in chung cheng, i could've gotten into tj with ease.
my dad too expressed his disappointment.. saying that if i hadnt slacken down since sec1, SAJC would have been nothing to me.

hmmm. its times like this when the anxiety and fear for the Olevel results gets too overwhelming and i start to regret what i have been doing for the past few years.

im just praying and praying so hard that my Os wouldnt turn out too badly. Really. I dont need single pointers. give me a raw 12 and i'll be v v v v v v v v v grateful.