i have now reached a phase of my life where i felt bored of everything. theres no more excitement, nothing else that i can actually look forward to. not even christmas, not the new year. an escapade is not enough. i need to migrate. i want to start a new life and meet new people and make new friends. maybe i shouldnt have came back at all. i enjoyed every bit of the trip. now that im back in singapore, im faced with all the various sorts of pressures from different people. i dont even want to think about my future. i dont even dare to imagine how my olevel results will turn out. seriously, i'll have to admit that i dont have much confidence in my exams. im scared you know. im afraid that i'll disappoint all the people who has been pinning high hopes on me. i dont want to return to reality.